my past my present my future "about myself"

Welcome to my world

introducing myself and my past life

my name is Karen i am a professional hypnotherapist based in Alexandria . The reason i became a hypnotherapist was i really wanted to do counselling to help people going through trauma {domestic abuse } i did not think i could do it wasn`t sure how to go about it so i put it the back of my mind and set about my life . that was until i met my amazing partner who encouraged me and supported me into doing it to go for it . he knew about my past which i will update you on in a minute . he knew i could be out there making a difference to people and knew it was my passion . so i did i done my research and found a course that in abled me to get a good outcome i am doing a Chrysails course which i am still attending . with this course you became a hypnotherapist with counselling skills first then carry on to do counselling / psychotherapy . which i thought would be lot more beneficial to a lot more people.

MY PAST i was 15 yrs old and met my first boyfriend love of my life i thought .. was i so wrong . things starting changing after i year when i had my first slap . i got i am sorry it will never happen again . that was the first off many .. i got my first house at age of 18 the day before i found out i was pregnant . the abuse stopped only abuse then was sexual when he forced himself on me when i was sleeping . or blackmail as he was taking drugs [ cannabis} and alcohol and when he didn`t have any this was the only thing that calmed him down my i gave birth to my daughter and the slaps started right after and taking my money i got . as time went on the slaps became punches the punches became kicking , the kicking became severe beatings . to weapons getting used on me . getting locked in house with no food etc . it was endless ..for a year after my baby girl was born , then it ended . it was over ..

WHY DID I STAY ?

WHY DIDNT I TELL SOMEONE OR THE POLICE ?

That` what i have been asked for years time... its not that easy when you are scared . frightened . you loved him . you didn`t want anyone thinking bad of him . you think you deserved it . it was your fault and you were embarrassed when he was in good mood everything was great . if i told anyone he said he would come back and kill me , and knew he had it in him to do it with his mind set .. he tried six times ............

i spent years on my own with my girl , then met someone ells gained trust again . married and had my boy . things were great for a few years until the alcohol became a problem . that led to drugs . drugs became the paranoid state that became controlling obsessive stalking . that took its toll of arguments .etc after 20 yrs it was time to shut that book up it took years of trying to get out again when things were good they were good but there was starting to be more bad than good days as the drinking didn`t stop for weeks on end ..

now my kids have grown up i got the head space to know it was over . to move on .

my present / future

now my life could not be any better . i have met the most amazing supportive man i could only imagine who has and is taking me everywhere to see things i didn`t know was there .who has encouraged and support me in every day life . and to go and do something to help other people , who is or has been going through the same as myself . to let everyone know there is someone out there to talk to you will be safe , feel safe , and someone to listen to you .. as i didnt know about any options of hypnotherapy or counselling . i was and felt alone to face it on my own which by doing this course and study i know know it would have been lot more better to go and speak to someone especially someone that has and knows what i went through .. hypnotherapy is not somewhere to go to be told what to do or give you there thoughts .. there there to be there with you to open your thoughts into options to get you to see another path another way of success and to try and turn negative into positive to be on that journey with you ... to see that there is light at the end of a tunnel